Good morning world! It’s Thursday, 17 October 2013 and a sunny day, compared to yesterday’s raining of cats and dogs! It was so bad, my utility room flooded, sending the cat to fits of panic. She was in scratching and hissing mood for the rest of the day, she wouldn’t stay in the utility room as all her things were wet.
And what’s new? Well, I’ve had a major breakthrough yesterday. Around the early afternoon, I suddenly felt the tension of missing Piff lifting away from me, as if someone pulled it off my upwards. My muscles around my mouth relaxed- they were clenched together the whole time I was with him; and generally, my body let go of tension.
The whole thing with him was too stressful, far too stressful. First he wouldn’t let me go, coming around unexpectedly and pressing his face against the window to see who was with me; and then, letting me go just like that, without a word. What a low, stupid man he really was. I feel a massive relief and I know it’ll only get stronger. As they say, time is a great healer- and it’s true!
Back to my life- Danny is home today, he went to see mama this morning and I’ve just picked him up. He was grumpy as he wanted to stay there longer, but I want mama to rest as much as possible before her cancer treatment. She’s due to go to hospital on Monday.
Dates- zero. I’m not going to see Omid again as, well, what for should I see him? He is lovely, but at 25…Azid is a same age, but at least he has very flexible schedule and is very hot. So we could squeeze some fun in, although I don’t think for a second I’m the only girl he talks to. He does seem like a player. But he keeps me entertained with constant texts and pics!
I’m studying very hard. I can’t wait to be a qualified coach! It’s really helping me deal with things, too. Loving it!